Tuesday, November 17, 2009
You all know that this week has been a hard one for me. I felt like I was eating everything in sight!
I got on the scale two days ago (maybe a big mistake!) and noticed it was up 2 1/2 lbs. I was shocked.
I knew I was bad this past week. Eating things like Pizza and Mexican Food (more then once) but to see a 2 1/2 lb. gain was scary.
So, I spent the last two days eating right and trying to get my exercise in. I wondered if I could fix this gain with only two days left before my weigh in.
Well, today was the day to face the scales. Had I gained? Had I lost or was the number going to remain the same?
I didn't even want to go weigh in this week but I knew I had to or it would just another step backwards for me. So I got in the car and drove to Weight Watchers.
I got on the scale and, yes indeed, I had gained! There it was, right in front of me. The ugly truth. I had let food beat me this week.
The lady who weighed me said "Oh it's ONLY .2lbs. That's like staying the same this week."
I know she was trying to make me feel better but, it's NOT like staying the same. It's a gain! Sure .2 lbs is only a few ounces but so what. Sure, I'm happy it's not the 2 1/2 lbs I thought I would gain but so what. It's still a gain.
If I get excited about losing .2 lbs then how can I just ignore it when I gain .2 lbs.? I can't. I won't!
I took my .2 lbs and went to sit down. I didn't feel good but I didn't feel bad either.
I knew I had learned something. I knew that .2 lbs got me focused again. No more pig out weeks. At least I hope not.
So I tell myself I should still be happy because I'm down 32 pounds in 16 weeks. I am getting healthy and feeling better.
I did go try on clothes the other day and found I could wear another size smaller, that's good right?
Sure, we can all talk our self out of feeling bad for minor gains but I don't want to. I want to remember this feeling. This feeling of letting myself down.
I want to remember what it feels like to look back and see that those few meals WERE NOT worth the gain.
So that's it. This week, I'm back in the saddle and I'm moving ahead and I KNOW I'll have loss next week.
I'm happy this past week is over and I can look forward. Had I given in and not gone to weigh in I would have another whole week of worry and wonder.
It's always good to go face the scale and rejoice in the victories and learn from the defeats.
Staying away only ends up in the weight going right back on and nothing gets learned.
I'll be holding open my giveaway until midnight tonight so if you have not yet joined scroll down and enter. I will let everyone know the winner tomorrow.
Hope you are all doing well in your weight loss challenge and have stayed on track. We will get through these holidays with a 10 lb weight loss. We can do it!